Well, I was looking for our assignment in Chemistry when I was still in 3rd year high school, about the Chernobyl Tragedy because I’m going to need it for my Argumentative Essay for my course ENGLCOM. I found it with all my other papers, then I saw on one of them my conversation with my ex when we were just friends back then. I remembered falling in love with him that every conversation must be remembered, and that conversation where I almost spilled out that I loved him back then was one of it. I printed our conversation because it was that meaningful, and I remember how I type back then, using the ~*j3j3*~ shortcuts! HAHAHAHA! =)) after months of talking to him, I got used to on how he types, as in complete, no shortcuts, which until today I use.

I just wanted to share that to you guise. I just find it funny how lovestruck I am, because even with Nikki (guess who’s Nikki. :>), I always want to save our conversation, even if we fight. Like in my previous blog entry, I’m easily pissed off when I delete it, accidentally or not.

Oh well. Just the Past. :)

March 10, 2012. Part 2.

After that super stressful CWTS, (If you read my post, then good. If not, then click here to read it. Though, I might warn you that if you don’t understand Filipino, then don’t read at all. Haha.) we went on a movie date again. :”>

We haven’t done this since like 2347829436 years. Kiddin’. Haha. But the last time we had our movie date was last Saturday. We watched Ghost Rider: Spirit of Vengeance, which I thought was funny and somehow cool, but it was eh. Haha. So yesterday, to relax ourselves on what happened in the morning, we watched This Means War. :D I wanted to watch this since last Saturday because I watched its trailer and I find it funny and cool. If you want to watch the trailer, here is the link. :D 

We watched it at Gateway because their movie house is cool. It’s just small but so cold. Better bring a jacket if you gonna watch there. Though, when you go around the mall, you’d be bored. Haha.

So, This Means War is starred by Reese Witherspoon, Chris Pine and Tom Hardy. When I saw Chris Pine’s character. Oh.My.God. He just reminded me of Damon, Ian Somerhalder’s character in The Vampire Diaries. If I remember correctly, Chris Pine’s character’s name was FDR. His character was a good-looking play boy and somehow bad boy CIA agent, which really reminded me of Damon. The way they look, they just differed in the color of their eyes. Chris Pine’s eyes are baby blue, while Ian’s are blue. I know that they’re just different shades, but, you would instantly see that. Haha. Then, Tom Hardy’s accent reminded me of Klaus, played by Joseph Morgan, a character in The Vampire Diaries as well. Their British accents are. UGH. <3 <3 <3

If you don’t believe me about Chris Pine and Ian Somerhalder. Search for their pictures. Hihi. :>

After watching, we went home. He accompanied me in the LRT2 Station. T’was my second time to go home alone using the LRT2. When the movie was almost finished, my mind just blanked out on how I’ll get home again, because he already taught and explained it to me last time. Haha. I panicked when t’was my first time, it was last Saturday too, but I didn’t let anyone notice that I was panicking already. This second time, I was a bit relaxed than last time but my mind would sometime completely blank out so, that’s when I get panic attacks. BUUUUT, I got home safe and sound. Proud of myself! :D

T’was fun. And because our schedule we don’t have classes on Wednesdays anymore, and we are almost free on Saturdays, there might come a chance that we might do this often. Hihi. :”> It’s what you call, FREEDOOOOOOM! :))

ANYWAYS. If you’re reading this. Thank you for the date! Though we were short in cash. Haha. :) I LOVE YOU! :*** >:D<

Sorry, but I’m gonna write this with a lot of curses and in Filipino.

March 10, 2012.

Eh kasi ganto yun. Okay naman na nung umaga, usual call time, usual na alis. Ansaya saya pa naming lahat. Tas pagdating namin dun sa Caloocan, sige go, tutor ako, natural magtuturo ako. Eh nalaman ko na may beke yung isa kong tinuturuan. Ang pangit naman kung papaalisin ko siya, nagbabayad yung pamilya niya ng 25 pesos sa BMMK para sa pagtuturo namin (na akala ko libre. Mahirap na nga sila, tas may bayad pa, willing naman akong magturo ng libre ah.) So, sige, go lang, tinuruan ko pa rin siya kaso medyo umiiwas na lang ako ng contact para maiwas din ako sa pagkahawa. Nung hinatid na nila ako sa meeting place namin, pinauwi ko na siya ng makapagpahinga na, yung isa na lang yung maghatid sa’kin kasi di ko pa rin kabisado yung lugar. Pag alis nila, nag alcohol na ko bigla, para todo iwas. Nakakahiya naman kasi kung sa harap ako nung bata mag gaganun, sabihin ang arte ko, sadyang umiiwas lang akong magkasakit kasi mahirap mag absent sa school.

Tas, dito na nagkagaguhan. Usapan, 12 ang dating sa school, pero since nung una pa lang, 12 ang alis namin dun, so ngayon okay lang. Eh antagal dumating nung jeep, puta. Tas nung dumating, di pa kami uuwi. Pumunta pa kami dun sa lugar kung saan nagfefeeding program. Tangina lang ng lugar na yun. Akala ko naman may gagawin kami dun, kunyari tutulong or what, pero wala lang. Pumirma lang kami ng attendance. Eh puede namang gawin yun sa jeep ah?! Edi yun, pinabalik na kami sa jeep. Pabalik na kami, pero, PUTANGINA LANG NUNG BATA NA NANGHIPO SA’KIN!!! TANGINA!! WALA PA YUNG MGA LECHENG “ADULT COMPANION” NAMIN. AKALA KO NAMAN KASI MANGHAHAMPAS LANG YUNG BATA SA TIYAN KO, EH OKAY LANG YUN, BATA EH. PUTA. BIGLA BA NAMAN AKONG FININGER TAPOS TUWA PA SIYA. PUTANGINA NIYA!!!! GUSTO KO SIYANG UPAKAN, IBAON SA LUPA, PATAYIN, SAKSAKIN, HAMPASIN, LAHAT LAHAT NA. WALA AKONG PAKE KUNG BATA YUN, UMASAL SIYA NG TAMA, UMASAL SIYA NG BATA, DI GAYA NG ISANG MATANDANG LIBOG NA LALAKI NA NANGHIHIPO NG BABAE. WALA AKONG MAGAWA KASI PANGALAN NG DLSU NAKASALALAY SA GAGAWIN KO. PUTAAAAA. WILLING NA KONG MAEXPEL SA DLSU KUNG GANUN LANG DIN DADANASIN KO SA CWTS NILA. TANGINA LANG.

Tas pagbalik sa jeep, di pa kami aalis. HUTANGINA. HINDI SILA MAAYOS OKAY. May sakit na nga si Kyle, at mas magandang umuwi na siya, pero hindi eh. HINDI PA KAMI UMUUWI. Tas lagpas 12 na nga eh, mag wa-one na. PUTA. Sa jeep namin, may sirang mirror ng jeep dun, lahat na lang ng galit namin nilabas na namin dun sa salamin na yun. At dahil galit na ko tas ang init pa, nagmumura na ko ng napakalakas at wala akong kinahihiya sa ginawa ko. Tama lang na magmura ko dahil una, PUTANG INA LANG NUNG BATA, pangalawa, PUTANG INA, MAINIT DUN, pangatlo, PUTANG INANG DI MAAYOS YUNG MGA KASAMA NAMING BMMK. 1 na. PUTA. Ipapaconsider ko sa COSCA yung 1 hour na yun. PERO DAHIL GAGO YUNG PARTNER “ORGANIZATION” NAMIN, SURE AKONG LATE ULIT KAMI UUWI. „|„

Alas dos na ng makarating kami sa school. TANGINA LANG. Nakakagago lahat ng nangyari. Buti na lang last CWTS na yung next Saturday. At kung sa lugar na yun kami magpoprogram, hala, ilalabas ko na talaga yung SWISS KNIFE ko at pag nakita ko yung batang nanghipo sa’kin, baka sugatan or patayin ko na siya.

Tas eto pa, may kahati kaming block dun sa lugar namin. TAS ANG LUGAR KASI TALAGA NAMIN EH KBS, di namin sakop yung KAWAL, kanila yun. PERO DUN KAMI NAGTUTUTOR AT YUNG MGA PARENTS SA KBS, DUN SA SEMINAR NG KABILANG BLOCK PUMUPUNTA. AT WALANG PAKE SI ANALYN DUN. TANGINA. ANO YUN, GAGUHAN? OKAY LANG NA DUN PUMUNTA YUNG PARENTS? TAS PAPAKIALAMAN PA YUNG PLAN NAMIN, IKAW GUMAWA HA? GAGO. PAKYU ANALYN. „|„

P.S. WALANG KWENTA YUNG MGA “ADULT COMPANION” NAMIN. TINAWAG PANG ADULT COMPANION EH WALA NAMAN LAGI, EITHER NAKIKIPAGDALDALAN OR CHUMICHILL SA BAHAY NILA OR NG IBANG TAO. PAKYU SA LAHAT NG NASA BMMK. „|„ <— middle finger ko, libog, tumayo. 

P.P.S. This blog is merely for removing my anger about what happened yesterday. If ya’ll gonna get angry at me for posting this, I.DON’T.FUCKING.CARE. All I posted here is true. 

~* I’ll write this blog in my native tongue: Filipino so that you can feel my emotions. Haha. :D *~

Ayun. Ampangit lang ng start ng March ko kasi ang malas malas ko. 2 beses na kong muntikan masagasaan, tangina lang nung driver, siya pa may ganang magalit eh siya yung hindi huminto eh kitang kita mo naman na dumadaan ako. Gago lang! Tas tangina lang sobraaaa kasi nadelete ko lahat ng messages niyaaaaa. PUTAAAAA!! :’( pero buti na lang nacomfort ako ni Tay Fitz tsaka niya. :”> sabi pa nga niya sa’kin, “gawa na lang ulit tayo ng bagong memories sa messages mo.” ahihihi. :”“”“”> (Lahat ‘to, nangyari lang nung March 1, 2012. Nakakaputa pa rin diba?)

So, March 3, 2012. Ayun, ayos lang yung araw na ‘to, sobrang init lang talaga niya. Buti na lang nag-aya siya mag Gateway kami, tas nood kami ng Ghost Rider: Spirit of Vengeance. Ang maganda kasi sa Gateway, anlamig sa sinehan kaya t’was a good way of beating the heat. Haha. :)) Ayun, masaya naman. Boring lang dun sa Gateway, wala ka na kasing magagawa besides the movie, so paikot ikot lang kami dun. Haha. Dahil dun, akala ko okay na yung March sa’kin.

Pero, di pala. Putangina lang nung March 5, 2012. Putangina sobraaaa. Eh dahil Santugon siya, tas active core member siya, yun, laging may meeting. 8 pm uwi. Ayos lang naman akong maghintay eh, pero ganun ka late tas may kasama pang ibang tao na di ko kaclose? Halaaaa. Ano kaya yun? Kaya ginawa ko na lang, stay lang ako ng sandali at sinamahan si Kyle hanggang sa sunduin na siya ng mga magulang niya. (Sabi ng mama niya malambing daw ako. Hihi. :”>) Ayun. Anyway, sanay na rin naman ako nun, na umuwi ng mag-isa, pero nung time na kasing yun, nagreflect kami sa FORMDEV, about sa Dark Nights namin, di ako nagshare nun pero naramdaman ko kung gano ko kalungkot, yung feeling na mag-isa ka lang na humaharap sa hirap ng buhay. Sinabayan pa yun na nauna na ko sa kaniya umuwi. Dun ko talaga naramdaman kung gano ko nafeel na all alone lang ako. Muntikan na nga na umiyak ako sa LRT tsaka sa jeep. Putangina, kahiya yun. Ano ko, nasa movie? Tas hindi pa siya naging helpful kasi alam mo yung ineexpect ko na magtext siya ng usual text niya pag bumabyahe ako, yung “ingat ka.”, pero putangina lang. Hindi eh. Hindi talaga. Leche. Tinext lang sa’kin yung about sa shirt namin. Oo, naiintindihan ko na dapat mag-alala siya pero putangina, ganun ba kapareho yung importance ko, kapantay ng tshirt? Tangina lang. :’(

P.S. Share ko lang ‘to. Hirap ng hindi nilalabas eh. :’( tas ngayon, medyo nagkakainisan pa kami. Tanginang buhay ‘to. <////3 ////wrist. :((((((

Lahat ata ng buwan pangit start eh, pero March lang talaga yung sobrang mali, sobrang pangit. Nakakagago lang.

So yeah, I just want to blog what happened today.

So as you all know, I blogged last night that I failed CCSTRIG cause of my stupid ass prof, and I went to her grade consultation day early this morning. AND FUCKING EARLY IT IS, who would go to school just for a 30 fucking minute consultation? That person would be me, cause I failed, and I needed it. So yeah, Cha was so early there cause of her father was in the Philippines already, and unfortunately, Mark Surema found and talked to her. HAHA. I’M SORRY CHA FOR BEING LATE! >:D<

So, when we got there, Ma’am Leah was telling us that she pities us cause we’re almost close to the passing grade, so she decided to MANIPULATE our FINAL EXAM, WHICH, she told us SHE WOULD NEVER EVER DO. HAHA. Stupid bitch. =)) I was feeling hopeless cause there weren’t any mistakes in my exam, so she decided to give us extra points for our efforts. So, Cha already passed, then I was panicking cause I can’t find any good solutions that were worth the points, but with Cha’s help, I found some, and THANKFULLY I PASSED!! HAHA. =)) while we were looking, I overheard Ma’am Leah telling Mark, “Mark, please please please don’t talk to me.” THAT WAS EPIC MEN! HAHAHA. =)))) I was being suicidal last night and early in the morning cause for my dad, FAILING MATH IS EQUIVALENT TO ME BEING PREGNANT, THAT IS EQUIVALENT TO ME RUNNING OFF WITH SOMEONE, in other words, bagsak sa math == buntis ako == makikipagtanan ako. HAHA. :)) so I didn’t tell them that last night cause I was hoping for the best today, which luckily happened. All that praying worked! :D :D

After that, I asked if Cha could accompany me to McDo for me to eat my breakfast. Then we were just so happy that we passed that we talked about funny things, especially the spoof of Jose Manalo of Willie Revillame. HAHA. =))) then Elica and Arneil came, and Arneil wanted to ask for more grade from Ma’am, so I went with them and Cha went home already. (I think. HAHA.) So when we got there, our birthday boy, Jed, was there and he was talking to Ma’am. Then Arneil talked to Ma’am, with a little flirting here and there, but, he wasn’t able to get the grade he wanted. I was telling him he was lucky already cause he got 1.0 from the original release of grade while I failed. Flirt. HAHA. =))

Then we went to Gox, which was empty, I was shocked. HAHA. We waited for Jed there cause he didn’t take a bath before going to the consultation, he just went there straight forward. HAHA. Then we saw Vic, and he came to sit with us and we talked about their swimming party, and what they did, which I was not happy about, but hey, who am I to judge right? Just don’t ask me about the thing that they did. HAHA. Then Paulo came, you know his walk, like he’s going to kill someone. MEAN. HAHA. Yeah, then Jed came, so, we were the first people to come to Rob, and we rode a taxi, all 6 of us, Manong Driver was so kind. HAHA. =))

When we were there, we were planning of watching a movie, so we went to look, and we decided to watch Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol cause it was the nearest cinema in Midtown. HAHA. :)) so after that, some of our block mates came, then we ate. We were the first one to eat though. HAHA. Then me and Arneil already bought our tickets, then one by one, they backed out, so it ended between us, it’s okay though, that’s our date. HAHA. But we asked Mommy Joane and her bf Peds to come with us when we were all playing at Time Zone, they said they’ll come, then when we called them, they told us they were already watching the movie. :O HAHA. =)) lovers talaga. =)) so yeah, they were all gone, and we watched MI. :D

I wasn’t even allowed to watch a movie, but I don’t want to go home cause I won’t be doing anything here, so Arneil was helping me to make up stories so I can stay longer, but I accidentally told my dad something, so the plan was ruined, but dad allowed me cause I told him the truth, that I’ll just slack off here in the house, and Arneil told me to be sweet, so I texted my dad “I love you daddy.” HAHAHA. :))) THAT’S THE FIRST TIME I TOLD MY DAD THAT, and he replied, “ok ok wag ka na magdrama.” HAHAHA. We were laughing when we both read that. =)))

COOL NUNG MOVIE GRABE. HAHA. That’s all. I’m kinda tired of typing, I just summarized the birthday party of Jed, cause the Grade Consultation was EPIC! HAHAHA. =)))

So to wrap all things up, ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY JED! >:D< && ARNEIL, THANK YOU FOR THE MOVIE, THE FOOD, ALL OF IT. >:D< :*

I’m just happy I met him. :D

He gets me really well. We’ve just known each other for like 6 months, but I feel like I’ve known him for years. I was never this open to anyone, and I mean anyone, like my ex and my past love. Hihi. :) I never trusted my ex like this. I’ve known my ex for some years but we just never clicked, we didn’t like some stuffs, and our personalities just clashed with each other, but with him, it’s all different. It was worth the wait, waiting for 1 year and 5 months. :D I like what we have. We still joke and tease each other like friends, but there are moments where we’re sweet and like that, that was what I wanted with my ex, but I think he doesn’t like that. Oh well, if it weren’t for him, I won’t value my present so much. >:D<

I’m just afraid of what will happen if we won’t work out. You know? I don’t want all of these to come to waste. I don’t want what we have right now will be gone in a flash. We’ll be like strangers again. I don’t want that. I’m thinking he’s the one, but, life’s a bitch, it has its way of fucking things up, so I’m getting prepared on the what ifs. The good thing about those what ifs and us being transparent with each other, as in transparent, we talk to each other about those, and telling each other our honest answers, I like it. :D

I was never this transparent with my ex. I was just like the go-with-the-flow girl. I’d do some of the things that he wants, but if I feel like somethings wrong, I rebel against him. Hihi. >:) But my present doesn’t give me limitations, though he was hurt ‘bout what his ex did to him, he’s still trusting me I won’t do what his ex did, and I won’t. :)

I just wish that we’ll make it through years and years, and I’m not losing hope that he’s the one for me. But, if ever he isn’t, I’d like us to be still friends cause I don’t want to lose all of these because of one fucking mistake one of us did.

I LOVE YOUUUU. »>:**«< :)

P.S. I just want to pour out my feelings. Hihi. Hope you understand guys. Love you guys. Hihi. >:D< <— hug for you my followers! :D

wala. ayoko ng araw na ‘to, nakakainis.

una. yung mga lecheng ibang colleges, lalo na yung CLA, grabe lang makapunta sa Gox, BUILDING NIYO KASI EH NOH?! badtrip. tengene. tapos parang ngayon lang nakakita ng computer. muntanga lang. kala ko pa naman lahat DL sa CLA, dali lang kasi maka DL dun eh. pasok mo yan sa course namin, ewan ko na lang kung san pupulutin yung mga yun. TANGINA. BWISET.

pangalawa. eto namang si daddy tsaka si mommy, di pa ko pinayagan sa live it up concert. “marami pang party diyan, wag muna yan.” ULOL. DI NIYO PA RIN AKO PAPAYAGAN DUN. SINONG NILOLOKO NIYO? HA? MUKHA BA KONG TANGA? KABISADO KO NA KAYO. LECHE. buti pa lola ko, payag eh. tangina lang eh noh. sunod-sunod. bwiset.

pangatlo. di ko alam kung galit ba siya. haaaaay. di ko makausap. wala. ewan ko. pakamatay na ko. kbye.

/////////////wrist.

ayun. ansaya ko lang kahapon. sobraaa. haha. :) :D :”> :>

movie date kami sa trinoma. Praybeyt Benjamin. hihi. :> 8:00 na kami umalis dun, tapos mrt-lrt ako, tas siya mrt-lrt-lrt. buti di pa kami napagsaraduhan ng lrt, first time makasakay ng last train ng lrt, tapos siya pa kasama koo. :”> ayun, at buti na lang may jeep pa, kundi ewan ko na lang pano ko makakauwi. :))))

yun. 10:30 ish na ata ako nakauwi. best day ever kahit pagod ako sa biyahe. :D

NOVEMBER 12, 2011. I LOVE YOU. ♡ :”> :* >:D<

ano bang problema ng mundo ha? init ng ulo ng lahat ng tao eh.

ate ko ilang araw nang mainit ulo sa’kin. SUS. MERON KA BA HA? MERON? ano meron sa’yo? WATERFALL BA MENS MO HA? HA? 

tas yung nanay ko nagagalit sa’kin kasi nangutang ako ng PhP 500 para bumili ng damit. EH KUNG DAGDAGAN NA LANG ANG BAON KO PARA DI NA KO MAGRESORT SA UTANG EH NOH. kainis. di naman branded yung damit kaya ayos lang. sulit. tapos pag magpapabili ako ng damit sa Zara o Topshop o Forever 21, galit na galit kasi ang mahal mahal ng isang shirt. almost 1k na. SUS. ANO BA GUSTO NILA? 500 NA NGA LANG YUNG 2 SHIRT EH. TSSSSS.

at least kasi yung pera ko nauubos sa PAGKAIN. PAGKAIN YUN. KESA NAMAN INUUBOS KO SA YOSI, BEER, PAMBAYAD NG MOTEL. ANO BA PROBLEMA HA? PAKI SABI NGA. MALI BA GINAGAWA KO? pumapasa naman ako ah.

MORAL OF THE STORY?

—> DAGDAGAN ANG BAON NI VIANCA VILLACORTA NANG HINDI NA NANGUNGUTANG SA MGA KAIBIGAN NIYA AT DI SIYA LAGING GUTOM.

fin.